This Morning

Today is February 24, 2009...

This morning I got up extra early and I have been reading my bible for about 30 minutes. It seems when everything around me seems to be crashing down, I always can rely on it. My last post was not intended for anyone to feel sorry for me, it was just an opportunity for me to get down onto paper what I am feeling. So, have the challenges fixed themselves overnight, nope. I will have to admit that my confidence and faith in the Lord are stronger though. One of my favorite passages is in James.

James 1: 2-12 "Consider it pure joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind. For that man ought not to expect that he will receive anything from the Lord, being a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways. But the brother of humble circumstances is to glory in his high position; and the rich man is to glory in his humiliation, because like flowering grass he will pass away. For the sun rises with a scorching wind and withers the grass; and its flower falls off and the beauty of its appearance is destroyed; so too the rich man in the midst of his pursuits will fade away. Blessed is a man who perseveres under trial; for once he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him.

As I type and read this scripture again, my heart fills with conviction. At times I do fill up with doubt. There are times when I do feel like I am being tossed around like a rag doll. He is calling us to be humble and to glorify Him still. One thing I have always been is a follower! My leading abilities are not the best, I think. The whole concept of following Christ should be easy for me, right? Honestly at times it is, like right now, this morning, I get it. I did the only thing I knew to do, get up early, spend time in the word and write down how I feel. As my day continues I pray that I will hold onto this scripture with confidence that God is true to His word, that He will provide the crown of life to those who do not lack faith. That is what my life is all about.